Still the dark of night
No sound to be heard
Only the throbbing heart
Oh how weary my thoughts
Oh how heavy my heart
How weighty the problems
How difficult the choice
How very frustrating
Such major decisions are
Yet I hunger for your love
I want to reach out
I want to be a part of you
But I cannot
I can't let go
I cannot bring myself to that
What can I do
What can you do
The long hours
Of the night pass on
With each passing hour thus
All becomes more mystifying
More complex in my mind
More stupefying
Stifling my thoughts
Rendering useless my hopes
Am I ready to give up
To forego that which cannot be
To end this impossible misery
Is that really what I want to do
Is that the way I want to go
Give up my love
Give up my dream
Give up my hope
No I will not
No not yet will I yield
No not on this night
At any rate
I will call forth
All my stored energies
From my deepest recesses
To dash those despairing thoughts
I can see the early break
Of a new day and
With it my courage revive
I will turn the other cheek
Plan to enter a new life
With the coming of the dawn.
Herbert Holzbauer
© October 2000
